SecretsAlive

Memories You showed back up Right when I was sure That you would let me be I'm finally getting to where I like what I see in the mirror And then there you are Reminding me of just how badly I failed when I tried so hard I fix everything for you You broke me into peices You broke my heart, my spirit And now I have to fix it I can't ever forget Too many memories Both good and bad But my eyes finally opened And I saw you for what you are And found that I never knew you And I wanted so bad to hate you But I could only hate myself For being so blind I let you break me down Day by day, year by year But atleast I learned my l

Running away.      I have been told it is            the only thing I’m good at.                 I’m starting to believe                       that it might be true.

Exhaustion Mind slips away Lecture fades to static Minutes slip by Notes go unwritten Unwanted thoughts slip in And distract from everything

pretend that i'm ok, i'm not things that i could never say words that wouldn't matter can't change the past look toward the future concentrate on today? look up the definition unrequited doesn't matter anyways the choice was made but it wasn't mine i didn't get a say broken heart? of course not, never couldn't happen, too soon broken promise? bet you didn't know doesn't matter anyways maybe i should have said it while i still had the chance but now that's gone, wont come back so the words die in my throat can't change the past look toward the future concentrate on today? today couldn't get much worse and i can't see

Sleep eludes   slips through grasping fingers         and drips into the void Page lit by the flickering screen   the pen weaves half unseen         and words spill out.

Lingering thoughts   in an empty room Memories painted on walls A woman sits and considers   New paint?   New memories? or maybe new walls

Hope   a feather on the wind   soft, fleeting, lost so easily   if we could catch and hold it          should we?   what use is beauty, trapped in glass?

Dark Night, Time Flies Eyes pierce the shadows fine Fingers creeping up my spine Wispered secrets full of lies

I sit and stare at the screen Wishing and hoping for what won't be seen A message, an note, a quiet hello Something, anything, from where oranges grow Fading into the mist of memory Knowing that when I'm thinking of them They aren't thinking of me Its normal, its healthy, its what I have to expect To be left to change, to grow, all on my own It tightens my heart to have to let go To leave and be left by those who own My heart and my soul

Safe within the circle Surrounded by my own Fitting like a puzzle piece With the ones that I belong This is what I dream of This place within my soul My heart cries out for them My Hopes, My Dreams, My Own